Addiction to affection was my greatest escape from reality.
Drinking and being stupidly "easy", was what I thought the answer to gain affection.
Suppose time-travel were possible, I would hop myself back to the moment when I went dumb and tell her:
"In just a couple of years, you will be staring at what you really want and regretting every decision you have made."

I am sorry, I wish I deserved you.